Looking at what I have achieved since the start of the year, I realised I have got everything I ever planned out. Apart from one minor detail, that of which no longer leaves me with fear as it once used to.
I thought I was in love, in fact I still probably do think that. I wish I could blame it on youth and nieveity but now I know it was just hope for my plan to work out. So much so I put up with behaviour no one should have! Confronted with lies has only made me stronger and now I have everything to look forward to.
Yes I haven’t started my career but I am a damn sight closer than alot my age. Starting my PGCE in September scares the living daylight out of me but I know with fear comes great rewards.
I have a handfull of the best friends a girl can wish for and for that im eternally grateful. My family have only ever supported me which is something I can never forget.
Yes I want a new car, a mortgage and a man. But for now I’ll settle for my summer job, my bedroom and my friends because looking back at what could have been. I know I’m the luckiest girl in the world. Yes I’m not perfect but I’m trying damn hard to get where I want to be. And hey! Nothing worth having is easy!